you will find it again

somewhere along the way

you’ll find the missing pieces

collect them one by one

 

like lost pairs of mittens

in the snow

 

you’ll press into your footprints

to make a lasting impression

 

before the rain comes

 

you’ll start to taste the wine

on your lips again

instead of ash

 

you’ll forget the smell of cigarettes

 

you already deleted the photographs

hoping that would erase

the memories too

 

now you’re seeking

music that makes you dance again

 

you’ll find it

 

when winter melts away

 

and summer falls on your bare shoulders

 

you’ll find it.

 

 

 

 

 

these days

I didn’t know the shadows behind your eyes were real,

I’m sorry I thought

You were ever faking

 

You breathe into every day and I don’t know

How you manage

 

There’s courage in you that you don’t even know

There’s a love in you

 

That you can let out if you just trust in us

 

I won’t hurt you, dad

 

You’ve been hurting for too long

 

I forgive you for what I am responsible for forgiving

 

I can’t save you from the anger of others

You’ve wronged over the years

 

Your intentions misguided though sometimes achingly

Pure

 

When I hear your voice now

I sense a different man has emerged

 

You are still in so much pain

But now you’re trying so hard

To stop trying to numb it

Enough to realize you’ve been relying on all the wrong

Vices

To save you

 

We’ve been here all along

 

And we won’t give up on you now.

I promise.